Dificult decision!

Today, for the first time in my life , i won an epic batlle inside of me !
Today my ex said that we needed to talk. when she said that , my heart momently  wanted to say "ok lets talk", but then my mind woke up and said "stop for a minute , remeber what she did to you, she hurt you, and she broke your heart. And then I understood that my brain is right , and i should shut up my heart and say no !
And I did that, I just ingnored her , but she was really persistent, if she would say that we needed to talk again , proabably, i would say ``yes ok lets talk``.
Today I won a batlle but I think that I lost the war.
I think that I`m in love with her!
It's been 3 weeks since the moment that we broke up , but I can still look to her , or to her eyes. Everytime that I look at her ,I feel pain , I feel unaccountable feeling to be with her , to kiss her , to make her the reason of my life.
But I think that is only stupid fantasy, we will never get back together again , and I bet that she only wants to talk with me to say that ``We can still be firends!``.
But at this moment I can't look at her as a friend.
But tomorrow I will talk with her !
I don`t wanna do that but I need to do it, I never run away from my problems, and I won't do it now!

Happy ?

I hate this day, it was 1 of the worsts days of all time.

It was raining all day , and I hate rain , it makes me sad, really sad :c !

today my chemistry teacher sent a message to my parents about my bad behavior, my parents don`t know about it yet , but when l'll tell them , it will give some problems, my father will undestand me , but my mother, I don`t think soo! :(

Today I also invited that girl to go with me to the cinema, I think she doesn`t believe me and also thinks it's just a joke.

I'm not sure if I will someday have something with her (I don`t think soo) but I will try, because:

she is my drug , and I`m dependent of her, for all her peace, I willing to give more then life.

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Again ?!?

This weekend I went out with some firends, on a shopping center.
I wanted to buy something but I didn`t know what.
And then on the middle of the shop , I saw ot , a pair of gloves, it was amazing , but there was a problem: it was made for girls, but still wanted to buy it, so I decided to give it to 1 of my class mate.
But who ?
And them I rebembered her , the only girl in my class that i never looked as a firend ,I try,I try sometimes, but it just doesn't work, she is diferent.
Today when I gave that gloves, to her , for the first time in  some years , I looked her in the eyes, and something inside, of  me some fire lit.
I don`t think that I love her , but I kind of like her,I like her very much,(she was my child love) I don`t think that she feels the same , but I can not be sure.
Do I deserve to be happy, do I deserve a love story with a happy end,  I don`t know, maybe it is not my destiny , but I will try , I will try...

Hehehe! :(

Today I realize that my ex was a total B*tch!
Today she was making up with one of my brothers , and that realy hurt me .
When I started to date her I asked all my firends if they didn't have nothing vs that relationship, because to me, my firends are always more important than girlfriends. None of them said nothing.
Today when I was having my lovely snack, me and 2 of my close firendssaw her and him kissing. I neither told this to nobody , nor spoke with him about that, I just don`t wanna know nothing about it.
I only know 1 thig, i felt real pain when I saw them.
It`s all for today
Ps: SRY can`t write more !

WTF !

Today I read a notice that Vatican contabilist, was busted for banking deviation of 20 milions euros.
Wtf !
If he stole 20 milions euros, it means that catolic church has a lote more , so why don't they give just half of that money to the poor peolpe, who are dying with hunger ? why ?
But that only happened because there are people who are giving money to the church, I`m not saing that is wrong , or bad , I`m only trying to say that if u have some money, and u wanna give it to someone, plz dont donate to the church. I'm sure that in your city\town there is a
or guy who doesn`t have money to feed his family , so plz give money to him, I`m sure that if God realy exists He will appreciate it more , than u giving money to a band of old greedy priest!
Plz think about this !

Alone, now and forever!

I started this day with a very very big smile, I woke up hearing my favourite rington , my mom did the best breakfast ever, it was realy delicious (love u mom).

But just like all love storys my girlfirend pist off my day.

Yesterday she was sad, really sad, and I asked her ``what's up bb ?`` she said that she didn't want to talk, and I let her think , because I know that girls are very delicated criatures, and I don`t want her to get angrry with me so, I left her thinking.

This mornig we started talking about normal stuff, and I put that question again, she looked at me like a litlle pupet, and said nothing.

when we got out of bus , she pushed me on the side, and said ``Sry, I love onother person, and when I`m with u , i`m thinking about him``. hearing that words was like I was getting shoted by her.

I smiled  (a fake smile , but still a smile ) I felt a massive pain that I cannot even look to her eyes.

I said that it was okay and there was no problem , and I started walking away with a big big smile, but it was like  the  hell was inside of me, inside of my heart.

And we broke up again, but this time is forever.

Why none of my love stories haves

 a happy end? Am I courset, or am I a really bad person !?

Today!

Today was a really shity day!
I spent all day working on a supid project, called iTEC.
It is kind of a funny project, but at the same time it's  starting to be so boring.
I finaly talked to her, explained all, why I was sad and mad at her, she said that she understands me but I don`t think she really does, but at this moment I don`t really care, 'cause I undestand that I love her , and I wana be with her , as long as possible.
And now, I will start a tradition, every week I will choose a special music and I will post it here , to share it with u guys!

Love u !!!!

Today was the worst day of my small but ineresting life.
Today I broke up with my girlfirend!
We started dating a week ago, but this last week , was the best week of my life, I really enjoyed being with her, in 1 week she turned from nobody to the most important person in my life.
The first days of our relatioship were amazing , it was like heaven on earth, but like all good things it ended quickly.
But on this week she started to have a very stupid attitude, it was like the girl who I fell in love died.
And now I`m siting here and wriiting what I`m feelling , but I still love her, now I`m and I still feel her lovely and sweet hands, i still can smell her hairs, and I still can  not stop thinking about her, but I did wat had to be done.
Maybe she loves somebody else, or doesn't love me , that`s why  I broke up with her , to don`t hurt nobody's feelings.

Introduction

I was doing nothing, when a brilliant idea came to my old and stupid brain !
"Why haven't I got a blog ?"
But about what ?
My first idea was K-pop, cause I love k-pop, which is the 2nd best thing in my life , it is like A best firend who is always here to help you when you're not feeling well.
My second idea was to write a blog about Starcraft 2. It is a stupid game , but i enjoy it , and it is becoming very popular.
But none of this idea was realy good and there, I realize , that I have the most wonderfull life,maybe in all of planet, So here I am to talk about  Love, History, Life problems,Music, Politcs, and lots more stuff thas no one is caring about.


Nice to meet you !
Dan