They are farce!

This weekend I decided to start a new life, and the 1 st thing that I did was to cut my hair, I really did a radical cut, and my surprise , was that when , I came to school , a part of my friend and teachers , started to treat me diferenttly, It was really strange cause I was not expecting that. It was really strange, cause they changed their behavior only beacause of my new hair style, and then I thought...
They only love my because of my Hair style. They don`t love my personality,  I undestant that I live in a cruel world where  widougth a beautifull physical aspect. u are nothing.
The 2nd thing that I decided to change is stop loving that girl,but it was much harder then I thougth.
When today I looked at her eyes , I saw something , I dont, know what but I saw something, and that something artacted me, she is not the quen of beauty , she can`t sing, she can`t dance, but still , she has something that atrcts me !

Hate this valentine !

Today as I planned I gave her my surprise , and for my admiration , she didn`t like it , I don`t know why but it makes me really sad, the result of my work in combination with my imagination made a woderfull present, But she didn't like it. It hurts me a lot.....
And the thing that shocks me the most is that she instead of being cooler to me she did the opposite, she started to be colder to me!
I really like her,  yeah for the first time in history I really like a girl!
But the problem is that she really doesnt like me , I don`t know why but probably she hates me, she didn`t like my present , that gloves that I gave to her , she never wore them.
The only thing that I want is to make her happy, and I don`t care , if her happiness is far away from mine, I will sacrifice my happiness , and left her  alone !
So I`m seatting here alone and sad , writing about me and my course,!!Happy day of forever alone !!\

Tomorow is a big day !

Tomorrowits gonna be a big big  day as u know , its the 14th february, and I already got my plan ready, I already bought all the things, and set all on their place. Tomorow I will giver her the result of my hard work and imagination!
I hope she likes.
My biggest fear, is that she will not like , and she will give me a slap, that is my biggest fear. If she likes I will be happy.
I already know she doesen't likeme, so this is going to be my goodbye present,left her in peace cause the only thingthat I want is her to be happy, I don`t wanna date her , or fuck her, because I reallylike her, and the only thing that I want is her to be happy!!!

If somebody is reading this , I wish u a happy

Valentine!

Sad realy sad!

About my life:

Today I felt really sad!
It all started yesterday, at lunch time , I felt lonely, so lonely, for the first time in my life.
I dont know why I felt lonely , but I created a real sadness inside of me. After some hours , I undestood that I`m not that lonely , But that sadness contiued. Don`t know why , but I still have it , and this time I hate everything , and everything hates me!

About that girl:

I really dont`t understand her, one day she is cool with me , the another she hates me !
She is really strange, but what I think is that strange atractts me to her, I never met a girl like her before, in my short life I already met a 1000 girls , but I never saw a girl like her. It is not the beauty , because I already met girls much preatier than her, but I like her personality, I like her thin voice, I love her hair, I love her eyes, and the thing that I like the most in her is when she smiles , she has a really strange smile , a diferent smile.
At day 14 of this month I will make her a big surprise. I hope she likes.
I don`t think that u are reading this( I hope not), but in case that u are reading this, I will not eat you, I will not bite you, just come on over, and I will treat u like as u are the only girl in the world

A litel bit confuse!

The 14th of february is on the next week, and I decided to ask that special new girl if she wanna date with me, I will buy her a milka hearth chocolate , and inside I'll put a paper with a question`` will u let me make u fell like u are the only girl in the world``. I think it is kind of romantic stuff , and normally girls like this stuff, but she is diferent, really diferent.
 One day I think that she is sympathizes me , the another she acts like I`m the person that she most hate in the world!
I really dont understand her, she is really diferent , I already met a lot of girls, but I never met, somebody like her. It is kind of stupid , but I think that way I like her , because she is diferent!
 I will give my all to have her, to have her atention, to have her love......
It will be hard really hard but I will only give up when I will be dead.

They don`t know nothing!

I hate this fuking day, it was the worst day of the year.
It start wonderfully, my mom made pancakes, and I love pancakes. But when i went to school.... I momently got a lot worse, my Hist teacher for the first time in history judged me ! It was really strange cause she is really one of the most understandable person that I ever met.
After that on the lunch time 1 my good friends bought a magazine ``Bravo``, and there I saw a poster of my favorite band , Bigbang (heart) but it was a old poster it was poster when they won a EMA but it was a really long time ago, so I got really angry, WTF they put such an old foto , it is stupid.
I only see 1 reason , they are very very lazy.

Am I insane ?

Today I realize that I`m in love with a game, at the first look it is a stupid game , but if u know it better , it seams to be 1 of the best things in the world.
When I say that to my firend`s they think that I`m crazy, they think that game is only a buch of Pixes, but what I see is a new different world where I can be a diferent man, where I can try something new, a place where I can be free from all my problem.
Every game that I play I gain a lot expirience, I`m always learning, every game that I play I see a different way to win and to lose. I`m not perfect.
So if someday 1 of your firends say that he/she prefers video game than a walk , don`t be surprised.